Not enough. Too much. Boring. Sad. In general: awful.
I want to overcome the need to hurt other people when I've been hurt.
I want someone with whom I can just be honest.
I'm not whole. I have no one to talk to.
I just have power but not in a way which would make me a better person.
I can only bring people to levels lower than my own.
I need to move on and stop this.
From one cycle to the next:
my heart is open and then it breaks and then I become this monster who takes all the love in the room and makes your fiance cheat on you and yes, it takes two to tango but someone has to fucking lead.
I can't keep doing this. I want to be happy.
I'm just so scared.
And what scares me the most is that I just might not be worth it.
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